This one provoked a couple of thoughts I wanted to share.
When you were talking about grief and how it lowered your capacity bc of the space it takes up, I thought of how our capacity for certain levels of work are also taken up by any trauma. I'm in a space where I'm mourning the things I could have done and felt and seen and been had some of the things that have happened to me not changed me and taken up soooo much space inside of me. And now there's space taken up by trauma AND the grief I have bc of the losses that trauma caused me. What a creative and messy process trying to figure out how to nurture myself in my new capacities.
Another thing I kept thinking about was the importance of play in this process. When I'm in a space of thinking about the universe and the work I do within it as inherently playful, like a big experiment while I'm in this body, it makes it a lot easier to think about working without shame. Striving for my own excellence in a way that's not so serious and rigid that it turns me off. More like a "let me see what I can really do" than a "I have to do XY&Z to feel good enough for myself."
I love this episode and its precursor.
This one provoked a couple of thoughts I wanted to share.
When you were talking about grief and how it lowered your capacity bc of the space it takes up, I thought of how our capacity for certain levels of work are also taken up by any trauma. I'm in a space where I'm mourning the things I could have done and felt and seen and been had some of the things that have happened to me not changed me and taken up soooo much space inside of me. And now there's space taken up by trauma AND the grief I have bc of the losses that trauma caused me. What a creative and messy process trying to figure out how to nurture myself in my new capacities.
Another thing I kept thinking about was the importance of play in this process. When I'm in a space of thinking about the universe and the work I do within it as inherently playful, like a big experiment while I'm in this body, it makes it a lot easier to think about working without shame. Striving for my own excellence in a way that's not so serious and rigid that it turns me off. More like a "let me see what I can really do" than a "I have to do XY&Z to feel good enough for myself."
Thank you so much for the work you do.